How many times have you heard it, "life is hard, life is unfair, I need this, I need that" what most people really need is a good kick up the backside Every fear we have, every worry, pain, guilt or shame is reflected back onto us from reality's mirror that's externalized from the inside out. Our boss, our wife, our husband, mother, father, next door neighbor, the government...they are our crux, they are our excuse, our obstacles in life, these are what we blame our problems on, thus, we delegate responsibility onto these people instead of ourselves, but only because we are not aware. Most of the time we don't even realize the problems in our lives persist because of this.
We are emotional beings capable of the most destructive and heinous crimes because we have no idea what the hell we're doing. We have no idea what we are supposed to be doing, or who we are supposed to be imitating. I say "imitating" because that's what we do, we conform to the external environment, we play roles, we cover our true selves by identifying with "things" that end up defining who we "think" we are. I'm a doctor, a salesperson, a secretary, a lawyer, I'm sad, happy, lonely, miserable, I'm angry, jealous, afraid and I can't help it, it's who I am. (can you see now why we are so lost) we are none of those things, they are the symptoms of the sleepwalking disease.
We spend most of our time trying to change the "unchangeable" because we are raised backwards. We want the external things we perceive to be soft, lovely, enjoyable, easy, beautiful, pleasant, attractive, charming and agreeable. All the problems we face throughout our lives is in our head. They're not outside, there's no fear outside, there's no worry, anxiety, guilt or whatever else...it's in our goddamn head. We suffer when we bump up against the external things we are trying to control. We suffer because we are trying to make some sense out of a mystery that cannot be understood by the conceptual mind.
Suffering is a consequence of trying to define the undefinable, suffering is an illusion created by your mind. It is said that what everybody truly wants is "happiness" but no matter how hard we try to find it, we never will. I look around these days and I don't see happy people, I see lost souls. I see people bumping against the walls of their constructed prison cells, I see conformity.
Nothing has the power to hurt you, nothing has the power to make you unhappy, nothing you perceive outside is capable of anything until you identify with it on an intimate level. When we react to external things, we make them real, thus, we lose control because our awareness is not on our own reality, but on the reality of others. We end up living our lives through others, our minds have been polluted by other people's beliefs. We conform to the opinions, prejudices and beliefs of the people who domesticated us from birth and have continued on that path unknowingly through our teenage years and into adulthood.
Distractions from knowing thyself is big business in today's society. We are constantly bombarded from all sides with distractions. People are uncomfortable with themselves, as soon as they are alone in silence, they immediately have to turn the TV on, or the radio, are we afraid to face ourselves? are we afraid we are going to find out the truth, that we're empty inside?
It's here, you have arrived, everything you need is right here. You don't need anything else, no matter what you have, or have not, is irrelevant, it is of no consequence. Cut out the distractions, see clearly for the first time, open your eyes and see that you already have everything in your possession to be happy, to be loved, to be fulfilled. It's not out there, it never was out there, it's in the same place it was the day you were born. It hasn't gone anywhere, it's just been covered up by all the bulls**t you have consumed by others who are seeking the same as you are. They don't know, so stop listening to them, stop following them. Easier said than done I hear you say, but of course, I'm just as asleep as you are, I'm just as lost as you are, but you know what? I'm aware that I'm lost, I'm aware that I'm sleepwalking, I'm aware that I need to wake up...are you?
Declan O Flaherty